March 2012
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Wearing orange for Self Injury Awareness Day...
And painting my nails orange. I don’t know if I’m ready to confess to anyone, but I’ll try to inconspicuously slip the topic of awareness into conversation tomorrow.
Gonna be bright and orangy. :) Join me?
February 2012
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I'm afraid of ending up a horrible cliché.
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Apparently I have to have "a good fucking reason"...
I’m a middle class white girl living in middle America. My parents are together, they love me, I’ve never been abused, raped, bullied, anything. I have no good reason to cut myself. I have no good reason to hate myself so I should just get over it and stop fucking up my skin for attention.
I don’t know why I do it. But I do.
Thing is
the only thing worse than cutting myself
...
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People always use the phrase "doing it for...
There’s such negativity surrounding self harm, eating disorders, and other problems partly because people are convinced the sufferers are “doing it for attention.” The thing is, many sufferers, whether consciously or unconsciously, are doing it for attention. But is that a bad thing?
We’re human. Humans require attention sometimes. Why does “attention” have to...
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I hate it when cuts keep opening up. Especially when it results in blood on your clothes.
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I just got the best workout.
I feel awesome.
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The awkward moment when the guy you like gets a girlfriend, and she’s really pretty.
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Goddamn, the world is beautiful.
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People keep telling me that because the kid who likes me is blind, I should “just give him a chance.” Okay, so I should waste time leading him on and dating him when I actually don’t like him at all just because he has a disability? I’m not going to be extra nice to him because he’s fucking blind. His head functions just fine so stop telling me to gift my time and...
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So there’s this kid who is somehow in love with me and he keeps giving me these like legit love poems, sometimes written in French, and saying how I “light up his life” and my “intelligence and radiant beauty” attract him to me and I feel like most girls would love that romantic shit and would be like, “Omg, that’s so sweet ahhhh gush.” But I’m...
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What the fuck.
So my fuckass of a friend at lunch today practically commanded me to put my hair in a side ponytail. “Uh, why?” I asked.
“Because at least it’ll look better than what you have now.”
What the actual fuck. I’m sorry I pulled out so much hair last night that it now looks ridiculously thin on one side and that I spent the whole morning trying to get it to look...
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I give up. I'm eating.
I got two fucking hours of sleep. I woke up from a half-hour nap and my body freaked out and I binged. I can’t deal with anything being this exhausted, let alone starving. I’m eating. I’m probably gonna gain so much weight, but for once I don’t care. I just need something to function.
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Every time someone offers me food
Person: Hey, want some of this food?
Me: Oh, uh...
Brain: NO, THINK OF THE CALORIES. YOU'RE GOING TO GET SO FAT. DON'T EAT IT. PUT THAT DOWN. PUT IT DOWN. DON'T EAT IT. DON'T FUCKING EAT IT. DO YOU WANT TO GET FAT?
Me: No, thanks, I'm not hungry.
